Monday, March 31, 2008
I meant to update a long time ago, but I guess it slipped my mind.Lots of things happened, and Trippin' has been nagging continuously day and night at my ear to FEED IT.
So here's a piece of well-deserved bread for my malnourished blog.
Like I said, lots of things happened, but I can't remember them. My mood has been pretty much neutral these past few days... weeks? Time has foregone my poor old mind.
...I feel old.
Or maybe Drama is just getting to me. Grr.
I hate being cryptic, but sometimes being cryptic is the best way to do it.
Being old, you realize people will leave you (People will leave you halfway through the wood...)
And find someone else (Nothing's quite so clear now...)
But still, you find solace in the fact that (No one is alone...)
*No one is alone, Into The Woods.
And when you're old, you start wishing (I wish)
To be able to turn back time (More than anything)
And do everything all over again (More than life)
*Prologue, Into The Woods.
I feel old, because otherwise I wouldn't be in sync with the mind of a 70-year old granny.
My brother, my solace.
My idea of a rebel, and yet my idea of peace.
I admire your strength and perseverance.
Now let's go back to the days of the old,
Let's go back to the era of pure innocence.
I thought I knew you.
Funny how I never knew you had a sister.
A sister as tough as you.
...Maybe a better sister than me.
dreamt at 5:24 PM
Friday, March 21, 2008
You live your whole life staring at a wall, your mind goes blank sooner now you will fall.You never learned the things you say to know now, but how?
There seems to be a difference, two different types of kids.
The ones who go out and the ones that are taught to live.
One groups taught how and the other group is taught why.
There's no need to tell you what's in my mind, but in the game of life I'm doing fine.
-Avenged Sevenfold, 'Streets'.
1.How tall are you? ___ cm. 15..plusplus. Grow taller, Hanis.
2. Have you ever been unfaithful in a relationship? Can anyone be unfaithful in a non-existent relationship? If that's the case, then I'm sorry to tell Gerard that I've been sleeping with all the other band members while dating him.
3. Do you own a gun? More like gunSS. My favourite is the Mega-Water-Blast purple one.
4. If you had a mental disorder, what would it be? Dyscalculia, Manic Depression, A.D.D.
5. How many letters are in your crush's name? Six.
6. What do you think of hot dogs? They're nice when I'm hungry.
7. What's your favorite Christmas song? ...We wish you a merry christmas. Heh.
8.What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Vanilaa Coke. Anything with caffeine, actually.
9. Do you do push-ups? I can do a pathetic one in the sapn of one hour.
10. Have you ever done ecstasy? If by ecstasy you mean little stoopid things that gets hanis high and happy such as watching mrt trains from sakinah's house, then yeah.
11. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
12. Do you like the rain? VERY VERY MUCH SO. (:
13.Do you own a knife? A keris from Bintan and a yellow penknife which I've named Scar.
14. What do you smell like? I'd like to think the rain, but most of the time I think it's just because I tend to never use an umbrella, even when it's pouring buckets.
15. Do you have A.D.D.? No, of course not. I'm very focused and...Oh, look- a butterfly!!!!!
(After 6 hours)
16. Full initials? H.K.A.
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment: 1) Avenged Sevenfold is playing in my head. 2) Meeting Sak at the interchange later. 3) Nice, special thoughts. (:
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought today? Nothing, actually.
19. Name five drinks you regularly drink, in order most to least. Vanilla Coke, Caramel Frapp, Strawberry tea, Water, and Water with sugar.
20. What time did you wake up today? 7! I'm a light sleeper.
21. Can you spell? Spell as in A B C? ...Off corse.
22. Current worry? That I spill too much when talking to Crothers again.
23. Favorite place to be? Cemetery. I know, sounds morbid.
24. Least favorite place to be? School. Gah.
25. Where would you like to go? To OUTER SPACE!!!
26. Do you own slippers? Manymanymany.
27. What do you think you'll be? A mermaid.
28. Do you burn or tan? Tannnnnnnnn.
30.Yellow or blue? Yellow, for reasons unknown to myself.
31. Would you be a pirate? YEs YES YES PLEASSSSEEEEE??????
32.Last time your cell rang? Yesterday, when Sakinah gave me directions to her house after I missed the stop.
33. What songs do you sing in the shower? Lotsandlots. Mostly showtunes. Good Morning Baltimore, All Alone in The Hallways as Always, I'll never Have that Chance, Colors of the Wind.
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? A red and black thingamajig.
35. What's in your pockets right now? My pajamas has no pockets! ... Someone invent something with lotsandlots of zippers and pockets for me, please.
36. Last thing that made you laugh? Yesterday, after stumbling upon something UNEXPECTED in Sak's sister's room.
37. Best bed sheets you had as a child? A pink and beige one, with intricate flowers all over as a border, and inside the picture, there's a little girl with curly brown hair and a light-coloured dress, wearing a wide-brimmed hat, feeding a bluebird with something inside her woven basket.
38. Worst injury you've ever had? Severed middle finger as a child. (Someone slammed the door on it by accident.)
39. What is your GPA? 31!!!!! Haha.
40. How many TVs do you have in your house? Two. One broken, the other crazy.
41. Who is your loudest friend? Gee. haha! Deepika!!!!
42. Who is your most silent friend? Natalie Wang. -.-
43. Does someone have a crush on you? No.Maybe.I don't know. Huh? What's the question?
44. Do you wish on stars? The moon. The stars you see in Singapore are dead ones. The light's just coming to us now.
45. What is your favorite book? Room 119, Theories of relativity, why did she have to die?
46. What song did you last hear? Avenged Sevenfold, Dear God.
49. What were you doing 12AM last night? Dreaming.
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? It's Saturday.
51. Does anyone know your password to your email? Nope. It's very, very private.
52. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonalds? Fries and ice-cream!
53. Are you an emotional person? Not most of the time, I try to keep my emotions in check. I'm impulsive, and it tends to backfire. So I've learnt not to display reactions to people who are waiting for it.
54. Do you like your school? Pretty much, yeah.
55. Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes.
56. Ever felt jealous of your friend? ... Wow. Wait, I don't remember. Jealousy doesn't stick with me.
57. What was the last thing you did? Daydream.
58. Who is right next to you? Someone named Lyrical.
59. Who was the last person you ate with? My brother.
60. What song are you listening to right now? Avenged Sevenfold. Dear God.
61. How's the weather right now? Sunny! Yellow.
62. Last person who called you today? No one. Aww.
64. Last song you sang? No Air.
65. Last time you danced? Yesterday, to Low.
66. Lost a friendship over something stupid? Yeah. Last year. God, I would willingly be run over by a bus to have her back.
67. Last thing you ate? Toothpaste.
68. Been really depressed before? Hard not to be when Natalie Wang is sitting behind you.
69. Faked being sick to miss school? Not in Secondary school, but if I wanna miss classes when I'm not unwell I tell my friends I'm doing it for fun. I don't fake.
70. What time did you wake up today? 7! wait, hasn't this question already been asked?
71. Current taste? Toothpaste.
72. Who is the person that posted this survey? Natalie.
73. What are you wearing right now? A KIKO shirt and hot-pink pants.
74. Are you too shy to ask anyone out? Not really, no. But I haven't tried.
75. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Hair.
76.Where are you right now? At home.
77. What date and day is it? I dunno. 22nd march is it? Oh, and it's saturday.
78. Did you go anywhere today? My room, my brother's room, the toilet, the kitchen.
79. What did you do there? I looked out of the window, I slept, I brushed my teeth, I ate.
80. How old are you? 14 going on 40.
81. Are you mature or immature? Both. (No one disagrees!! *evil glare*)
82. Do you call your parents by their first name? Nope.
83. Are you an only child? No.
84. Where do you go shopping? Malaysia or Taka. Mainly Orchard places.
85. Do you like where you work? I don't think I'd like working much, period.
86. Do you like books? Ver vey much so.
87. Do you want to get married? Maybe.
88. To whom?
I don't want to see you like this.
We all tried to save you but missed.
I still feel the hope on your road.
Now come back to us like the days of the old.
I still feel you there, trying to get on top.
You'll always have my support, in my heart.
People you've hurt.
Friends that you've lied to.
But we understand, and that s not (you) can see the end of the road,
I can see it too, for you, I'm scared, if I lose you, I'm not prepared.
But this time, if you die,
I'll just watch you, right before my eyes.
- Avenged Sevenfold, 'Shattered By Broken Dreams.'
dreamt at 6:51 PM
My blog is NOT keeping up with my schedule.
This is a pathetic attempt to get it mor filled-up and happy. ... I have grown attached to my blog. Shall I give it a name?
I'll name it... Trippin'.
On Thurs night was Into The Woods (let's forgive and forget the whole holding up the bus thing) and although a little draggy, the set was beautiful, lyrics were awesome and acting was good except for a bit of O-T-T-ness.My favorite character has to be the cow and the witch. Both had a lot of stage presence and were very constant till the end.
My favorite song would definitely be 'The Last Midnight' (I think that's what it was called) sung by the witch. The second would be by the princes. It was egocentric and preppy. Couldn't contain inward giggles.
Me and Sak are creepy.
For OBS in January, we bought our pants from the same place. At the same time. Same day. I know coz I ran into her there. On the first day of OBS, we were both wearing the same 3/4 pants.
During Lit, we both had the same song running through our heads. Britney Spears Piece Of Me.
And on our bus trip to Laselle, we both took out our lipglosses and started applying them at the same time.
At the same time.
Same second.
....
I like lipgloss. I used to wear that and eyeliner all the time since I was a kid (thank my mom) whenever we go out. I ditched the eyeliner a long time ago, but the lipgloss stayed coz I came across a chocolate-vanilla one once and fell in love with it again. But my mom gave me two Estee Lauder strawberry flavored tubes for Hari Raya, so I decided to wear that. The chocolate one is SPECIAL. I have named it Bon Appetit. It's delicious with a capital D.
And my daddy says he'll get me chocolate perfume and cocoa scrub.
Call me a choc fanatic.
Sak was wearing a really colourful gloss, it's Mary-Kate and Ashley. It shines a lotlotlotlot.
And we bought chocolate to last us throughout the whole trip.
Which reminds me, i owe her 3.70.
We felt kinda bimbo-ish on Thursday night, but every girl has her moment. And she owes me a lipgloss. (Hope you find your 14 tubes of liquidishes, Sak)
Me and Sak curse a lotlotlotlot. She was waving her middle finger around on the top of the bus deck one day. (Tsk Tsk. How can you be so f***ing vulgar, dear?)
Today me and Siti went over to Sak's house to study.
"Study Marathon," as Sak puts it.
All I remember doing was watch Sak OCD, Siti STUDY, and the TV.
America's Next Top Model was fun. NOOO. The good people get voted off.
And thanks for the Mac and Cheese, Sak, it was.... an experience. Seeing you cook.
Siti. I need your discipline. How do you do it?
Thx guys, I had a lot of fun, and Trippin' is feeling better now.
dreamt at 5:24 AM
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Gossip.A guilty pleasure where we've all been guiltily guilty of in some way or another.
Why do we gossip?
It's sick and wrong and immature and childish and redundant and hurtful and-
And yet we still do it.
It's human to form quick impressions on people based on pure word-of-mouth and pass judgments without thinking.
We would all be looking out for their flaws to confirm what we heard and the poor subject would then be scrutinized and tested upon without even knowing why, if innocent.
We aren't perfect, but we should be able to recognize our flaws and try our best to CORRECT them, not HIDE them.
It's not easy, but it's sure as hell worth a try.
Staying true to yourself and being open-minded is one of the few things to keep in mind when being caught in a vicious gossip circle. It may take a short while, or a long time, but if you stay true to your values and self, people would soon come to respect you for who you are.
The worst thing to do when in such situations is to bitch back.
I quote from High School Musical 2:
"You're very good at the game that I don't wanna play."
-Gabriella Montez
Just like a moshpit in a concert, if you push back in revenge of the
Relax, enjoy life, loosen up.
Take a chill pill from Eminem.
"Talking that shit behind my back,
Dirty mackin' telling your boys that I'm on crack
But I just don't GIVE A F**KKKKKKkk."
-Eminem, Just don't give a f**k.
I know it's random, but I've spent the good part of this morning cracking up to Bowling For Soup and Simple Plan.
Ain't that a 'b' with an 'itch'
Ain't that a mother trucker
You can go to h-e- double hockey sticks
And f yourself
Cause I'm flippin' gosh darn sick
Of all the s words you put me through
So f-u.
-BFS, Friendly Goodbye.
Is it okay if I speak to you today?
You've been pissed off for a week now
But nothing I can say could make you look up
Or crack up
Is there anything I can do
Anything to show you
You're a bitch
But I love you anyway
OH OH You can't sing
But you still put me to sleep
Baby you're a bitch
HEY HEY HEY HEY
You make me sick
But don't ever go away
-BFS, The Bitch Song
There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you
You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time to
Criticize me
It seems like everyday I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not tooodaaaayyyyy
So SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP
Don't wanna hear it
GET UP GET UP GET UP
Get out of my way
STEP UP STEP UP STEP UP
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today will ever bring me down
There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do
You think you're special
BUT I KNOW AND I KNOW AND I KNOW
AND WE KNOW
That you're nooootttt
You're always there to point out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not tooodaaaayyyy
So SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP
Don't wanna hear it
GET UP GET UP GET UP
Get out of my way
STEP UP STEP UP STEP UP
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today is gonna bring me down
Don't tell me who i should beeeeeee
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should doooooo
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade awayyyyyy.
-Simple Plan, Shut up.
I'll see you guys around, Take care, love ya'll, Thurs night was fun, sorry for being late.
dreamt at 6:39 PM
Thursday, March 13, 2008
One word to describe today: SPASTIC.SPASTICATED.
SPASTICATION.
Take your pick.
If there were one thing I wanted to change, it would be my costume. Kristen's skirt was nice, but apparently, I looked 'too skimpy' in my white tank top. Well, I guess that's coz I don't really wear those kind of revealing clothes outside, so my awkwardness wearing it on that day must have shown on my bare skin.
I ended up borrowing Nat's brown jacket throughout the whole performance.
Our class has GOT to be the most RANDOM and SPASTIC group there. Seriously, what class has managed to put together terrorists and newspapers and dance and OBS and belaying and ballet in a single CHEERLEADING performance??
Only 3e1 guys, only 3e1.
dreamt at 11:13 PM
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
You are truly an original person.You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. (...uhh...)
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. (true, true)
You're a strong person.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. (I don't strive for it, I'm just a magnet for all things bad and good)
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. (Awesome.)
You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are very intuitive and wise. (HAH! No more digs at my common sense, please)
You understand the world better than most people. (HEYHEY!!!...cool.)
You also have a very active imagination.
You often get carried away with your thoughts. (Accurate.)
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. (Jealousy, yes. Paranoia???...)
You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. (Have to disagree completely.)
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. (Now that you mention it...ch'yea)
It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. (Heheh.)
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. (Boo ya.)
You don't stick with any one thing for very long. (It's bound to get boring right??)
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. (Maybe...you could say that.)
Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. (yesss...no. My biggest problem is finding out which way my underwear goes on every morning before school.)
You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. (no comment.)
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. (oh che.)
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. (I confess.)
Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.
You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. (Listen up and listen well, ya bizzles.)
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. (living example: siaw ee.)
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. (NO I'm NOT .*rebel rebel*. hah.)
You're always up to something. (...enough said.)
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. (So don't even try!!!. pfft.)
You're very intense. (eek.)
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. (trouble's mah middle name.)
But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You are a very lucky person. (nat, ur right.)
Things just always seem to go your way. (like I said, I'm a magnet.)
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. (so now u know how I manage to not know when CA week is...)
You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. (Wha...? Coz not. I give to people, dude.)
Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. (No!)
I love this quiz!! Who was the person
dreamt at 2:05 AM
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
I should have probably been expecting it anyway...But the subconscious has mysterious ways of working.
Am being horrifically cryptic here, which I try to not do, seeing that I am incoherent most of the time.
But desperate situations call for desperate measures.
Even then, I shall try to not... act on impulse. That is rule no. 1 in the Hanis book, a rule as golden as ripe corn and as important as protecting the Queen of England.
Impulsive actions tend to backfire.
I shall be patient and simply wait it out.
I am strong, I have willpower, I can survive.
There is always hope.
dreamt at 4:07 AM
Monday, March 3, 2008
dreamt at 5:51 AM
Dear God,
The only thing I ask of you
Is to hold him when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left him when I found him
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Coz I'm lonely
And I'm tired
I'm missing you again...
....
Once again.
dreamt at 5:47 AM