Tuesday, July 29, 2008
AAAh come online already
come on come on
what time do u come back from school huh?
PLEASE COME ONLINE
i spent the whole day agonising
my friends will back me up on this
SO MANY GIRLS BE CHECKING MY STYLE
But i dont even care, no
i digress
AAAAAAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
dreamt at 3:16 AM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
IT'S SO HORRIBLY BORING
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
miaow miaow miaow miaow
a pocket full of pie.
I'm SO BORED
takakakakakakakakka
dreamt at 10:18 PM
I owe my thanks to you.
My whole world to you.
I owe this performance to you.
You made me feel raw from the inside out.
Made me go numb.
I couldn't feel, didn't want to feel. It was all boiling underneath the surface.
The ghost of a memory waiting to be opened.
It was an excellent performance, and i wish you were here for me to cuddle into you crying how they used my feelings for you.
And you would just hug me and keep quiet while I cry my eyes out.
But you aren't here.
And the silence feels like something else entirely.
I loved youI have loved you all alongHow could I ever tell them about this?
So I just went to the lighting room where I struggled to tell Sakinah what happened, but all that came out were two traitor tears.
Stop breathingIf I don't see you anymore.
dreamt at 3:24 AM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Today is a quiet day.
You can feel it.
It's a very quiet day.
The silence almost stifles you as you walk around.
It's comforting, like a lullaby hummed to no one in particular.
It's warm, like the way the sun feels on your face after you come out of a very cold room.
It's nice, like the way the wind feels when it blows through the cemetery.
But most of all, it's quiet.
And me being Hanis, I am not used to silence.
There is something stuck in my throat that struggles to get out but it won't.
The quiet. I like the quiet, so why do I feel the need to pierce through it?
This is so annoying. Why do I feel the need to confuse myself?
MIAOW.
dreamt at 5:10 PM
new blog. comment please.
www.doubledeckaddict.blogspot.comthx.
I feel weirdish.
dreamt at 5:12 AM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
everytime i try to fly, i fall, without my wings, i feel so small.
I feel like I can do better than this, at eveything and anything I'm doing, but somehow, it feels like there's a chain that holds me back even when I think I'm ready to soar, like a bird on a stand.
After a while you sort of give up, even when the chain has been removed.
That's why birds don't really fly off even though they're no longer attached to their stand.
I guess i need you baby.
but the worst part is when you won't cut off your own chain even when u could.
I need my chain. I don't know who i am without it.
dreamt at 3:40 AM