Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Even if you sayIt'll be alright
Still you'll hear me say
I want to end my life
I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait to go home
To pass the time in my room alone.
I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months and I'll be unknown
dreamt at 10:24 PM
Monday, April 20, 2009
I've recently been reading someone's blog.My boyfriend's ex, to be precise.
But thats beside the point.
I don't know how anyone's life could be that simple.
So straightforward...open... direct. How does anyone do that?
I dont know what i'm thinking right now. Huge bitchfucker headache since ystd. It wont bloody go away.
Hazwan, I miss you.
dreamt at 4:34 AM
Monday, December 8, 2008
It's not true. I'm not in love, and never will be again. This I have accepted.And this is the reason why I can never be close to my parents. I don't want them to know anything about me. I'm fine with that. I don't care if they don't support what I love or if they're ever there for me. I'll tolerate them as long as they provide me with shelter, food and money. We will merely remain as house-mates until I move out.
They hate me. I'm the black sheep of the family. I get it.
I can't say I hate them. But I don't love them either. Maybe once upon a time, but that was a time I couldn't remember, for the rest of my days were only filled with one person.
The only person who I have loved, regardless of whether he loved me or not.
Hazwan.
And I would settle for no less.
dreamt at 7:18 PM
Monday, December 1, 2008
"It's unbelievable to see how love could set me free." -Superhuman.These past few weeks have been a rollercoaster of sorts, but a good one nevertheless, seeing how the end result turned out.
Life isn't the same, but I suppose that could be a good thing.
Hey Khairul, love you too.
dreamt at 5:24 PM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
My spaghetti strap was white and silver instead of brown, and my bra and short shorts were black instead of white, but it looked good. I also tried really dramatic makeup- we're talking lots of shimmer for the eyes- in blue and silver LOTS AND LOTS OF EYELINER and I dug up an old lipgloss/colour in nude pink and it looked really good. I shall take a pic and put it up for you guys to see.
I like the way Rihanna lines the eyes- from corner to corner- and when I tried it, it looked good coz my eyes are big and long, so it suits the lining without looking like some out of place minah.
And I have never really appreciated my natural tan skin colour before yesterday.
That's why, besides Agyness Deyn's haircut, I have decided that Rihanna is my ultimate fashion icon, mostly because I know I can pull off any look that she can, seeing that certain of our physicalities are similar.
THIS IS THE HAIRCUT THAT I WANNA GET.
I WANT I WANT I WANT
I look beyond awesome in that haircut. I know because my hairstylist had me wear a wig like that. And I couldn't recognize myself at all.
Yeah, something like that.
I'll try to persuade my mom again.
TA!
dreamt at 5:33 PM
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Feeling so safe when I'm with you, wanting to feel your arms around me.Seeing your really long eyelashes flutter when you look at me, your chocolate brown eyes kindles a warmth that I thought I could never feel.
Everything's deifferent, but it's fresh coz it's new.
And I like it.
Please don't ignore me.
I've already given you the rest of my heart without actually intending to.
You must've stolen it.
Weak
I've been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I could barely speak
Barely eat
On my knees
But that's the moment you came to me
Don't know what your love has done to me
dreamt at 11:59 PM
Currently listening to: Superhuman by Chris Brown and Keri Hilson.
There's a fine, fine, line by Avenue Q the musical.
dreamt at 7:17 PM